My dearest Momanimal,
I am sorry, I disappeared. We were on holiday in France and I was thinking about calling you everyday. It was raining moost of the time, we were very unfortunate as far as the weateher was concerned. But this way, we really relaxed. Sometimes it was difficult to keep the spirits up, because I really loved that place near Bordeaux. Really, really did. If you were alive I would have called you every day, telling you about the weather and how unfortunate we were and blablabla. Coming back was tough to, because you weren't waiting for me... That's another I have to learn to live with. So I just tried to forget for the past weeks. Forget everything, I just pushed it away whenever thoughts of you appeared in my mind. And I was okay. Felt very good even.
But today memories came back full force. After working on my every day projects and entering contests and redesigning my logo and my website, I am crushed today. I dreamed of you tonight you were so alive and present. It's rough to get myself motivated and to keep the tears at bay. Very bad of me to write to you only because things are looking up instead of down. Classic daughter behaviour. I love you and I miss you. Please come back.
